给达赖喇嘛尊者的信

2008年8月8日
August 8, 2008.
汉人朱瑞致尊者达赖喇嘛的信
Zhu Rui's Letter to the Venerable Dalai Lama

敬爱的达赖喇嘛：
Revered Dalai Lama:

我不得不告诉您，在我少年和青年时代的印象里，您是一个剥人皮，剔人骨的妖魔。仅仅这一点，也许您猜到了我是一个汉人。是的，我在中共的教育体制下长大。1997年，一个偶然的机会，我踏上了西藏之路。那一年，我第一次看见了您的照片（秘密地），您慈祥尊贵的面容，使我对中共的宣传产生了怀疑。
I have to tell you that my impression of you in my childhood and youth was that you were a flayer of human skin, a demon who picked flesh from human bones. From this point alone, you have probably guessed that I am Han Chinese. Indeed, I grew up within the Communist education system. But in 1997, I chanced upon an opportunity to travel to Tibet. That was the first time I (secretly) saw your photograph, your kind and compassionate visage, and it made me doubt the Communists' propaganda.

那一年的吉祥天母节，我早早地到了祖拉康，吉祥天母的面罩打开了，灯光里，当我仰视女神的时候，突然，我的背后响起了歌声。那是一个老人忧伤而激越的歌声。在松赞干布的佛殿前，她一边唱，一边把酒倒进松赞干布像前的酒坛里。四周的男人、女人、甚至小孩子，立刻和着老人唱了起来，警察来了，他们的歌声更加嘹亮... "是在颂赞达赖喇嘛啊！" 一位僧人悄悄地告诉我。
At the Festival of the Bodhisattva of Good Fortune that year, I went early to the Zulakang temple where the Bodhisattva's covering had already been removed, and in the light as soon as I saw her face, the sound of a voice rose behind me. It was the mournful yet excited sound of an elderly voice. There before the Songsten Gampo hall, she sang while she poured wine into a goblet in front of the statue. Men, women and even the children all around immediately joined in the singing, and when the police turned up, their voices rang ever more brightly... "They're praising the Dalai Lama," a monk quietly told me.

那天，我从旅馆里搬了出来，住进了帕廓街冲赛康一户从前的商人家里。1959年以前，这个家庭的女主人，在平常的日子里，身上的饰物也要价值三、四万人民币，现在她仅剩下了一两件换洗的衣服。连祖辈留下的老房子，也被拆迁了。换来的新房似乎比过去多了一些光线，但是，空间小了二分之一还多，又没有上下水，公共卫生间说堵就堵，忍无可忍的气味，甚至串到了帕廓街上。对中共的掠夺，这位女主人从没说过一句怨言，她在不停地说着另外的语言，声音很小，我仅能看到她的嘴一张一合。我以为她在念六字真言，希望来世更好。可是，有一天，只剩下我们俩人的时候，她看了看空无一人的窗外，说，她在为您念长寿经。
That day, I moved out of my hotel and into the former home of a merchant on the Barkhor. Prior to 1959, the mistress of this family used to wear clothes most days worth 30,000 to 40,000 renminbi, but now all she had left was two sets of clothes. The home left to her by her ancestors had been demolished. The new home seemed to be worth more, but it was less than half the size of the old one and there was no running water and the communal toilets were constantly blocked, sending their unbearable stench right out into the Barkhor street. This woman had no complaint about being plundered by the Communists, but there was something she was constantly saying, very quietly - I could only ever see her lips moving. I thought she was reciting the mantra, "Wish for a better life to come." But one day, when there were only the two of us and she saw there was no one there outside, she said she was reciting a long-life prayer for you.

1999年4月，我第二次到西藏，住在山南地区扎朗县吉汝乡日直卡村的一个农民家里。那里没有自来水，也没有电。每天早晨，家里人沉重地到河边背水，晚上，连小孩子也坐在微弱的油灯下捻羊毛。卖氆氇，差不多是村里人唯一的生活来源。我们的食物很简单，土豆，是一日两餐（不包括早餐的糌粑）的奢侈品。可是，在楼上，光线最充足的房子里，挂了一张镶着精制的镜框的您的照片，镜框的上面挂着一条长长的白色哈达。
In April 1999 I went to Tibet for the second time where I lived in the home of farmers in Rizhika village in Jiru township, Zalang county in Rikaze prefecture. There was no running water there and no electricity. At dawn each day, the family traipsed to the river to carry water and in the evenings even the small children sat around the weak oil lamp twisting wool. Selling felt was pretty much the only means of livelihood the villagers had. Our food was very simple, with potatoes for two meals a day (aside from gruel for breakfast) being a luxury. But there in the home, in the place where the most light came in, was a picture of you in an exquisite frame draped all over with long white khada.

后来，我选择了在西藏工作。作为一名编辑和记者，我有机会接触了一些在中共机关里工作的藏人，亲眼看到了他们中一些人的家里最秘密处供放的您的照片和从没有熄灭的酥油供灯。
Later, I chose to work in Tibet. As an editor and journalist I had the opportunity to meet with some Tibetans who worked in Chinese Communist Party offices, and with my own eyes saw how in the most secret places in their homes they have photographs of you and yak butter lamps that had never been lit.

是的，您不是藏人的敌人，而是藏人的父亲，是藏人慈悲和幸福的源头。是益西诺布 - 藏人的如意珍宝；是衮顿 - 永远在藏人呼唤您的时候，出现在跟前；是嘉瓦仁波切 - 至高无上的法王和最尊贵的珍宝...显而易见，中共政权不是解放了西藏，而是抢劫了西藏，不是播种了幸福，而是在制造苦难。
You are not the enemy of the Tibetan people, you are the father of the Tibetan people; you are the source of the Tibetan people's compassion and happiness. You are Yeshe Norbu, the Tibetan people's wish-fulfilling jewel; you are Kundun, who forever will appear before all Tibetans whenever they call you; and you are Gyalwa Rinpoche, higher than all kings and the most precious of treasures. And evidently, the Communist authorities did not liberate Tibet, they robbed Tibet; they did not sow happiness, they created suffering.

倾听您在美国维斯康辛洲麦迪逊的讲座，我感慨万千。那有如大海一般的佛学知识，经过您循序有致、由浅入深地阐述，奇迹般地成为雨露，滋养和清新着听众；您尽其所能地回答大家的每一个问题，关怀每一个微不足道的个体的痛苦和哀伤；尤其当有人提问有关中国和西藏的问题的时候，您总是虚怀若谷地强调中华民族优秀的一面，鼓励藏汉民族之间友好相处...和中共的邪恶、阴谋、腐败、独裁相比，您的悲悯、透明、清廉、民主，将受到时间的检验。
Listening to your lecture at Madison in Wisconsin, I was filled with emotion. An ocean of Buddhist wisdom of the greatest depth and by degree ever more complex was systematically expounded by you until it miraculously became like rain, nourishing and vitalizing your listeners; you did your utmost to answer every everyone's questions, embracing the smallest shred of individual pain and suffering; and even when someone asked a question about China-Tibet relations, with limitless patience and concern you emphasized the excellence of the Chinese nation, and encouraged friendly exchange between the Chinese and Tibetan peoples. And the Communists' evil, their scheming, their corruption and dictatorship, when compared to your compassion, your transparency, your honesty and democracy - all shall undergo the test of time.

五十多年来，中共在西藏的残酷殖民统治，挑起了今年三月遍布全藏区100多处地点从所未有的和平抗暴活动。可悲的是中共领导人不仅没有就此反省和调整对藏政策，而是居高临下地给您规定了"四不支持"为对话前提，把摆在眼前的白热化的西藏问题，变成了您个人的问题。其本质，是在掩盖甚至抹杀西藏问题。目前，西藏已成了一座大监狱。据说在拉萨，每三个人中，就有一个便衣，军队开进了最偏远的乡村，所有的外来电话（尤其国外电话），受到严密监控...
In March of this year, the Communists' cruel 50-year colonial rule of Tibet gave rise to peaceful, non-violent protests at more than 100 locations throughout all Tibetan areas. The tragedy is that not only have the Communist leaders failed to reflect upon or adjust their policies in Tibet as a result, but condescendingly they actually dictated to you that there were the "four do not supports" as preconditions to dialog, making the white-hot Tibet question a problem for you personally. Their intention is to smother and even kill off the Tibet question, and Tibet has now become an enormous prison. It's said that in Lhasa, one in three people is a plain-clothed police officer. The military has gone into even the most remote village and all telephone calls from the outside (especially foreign calls) are closely monitored...

西藏的文化博大精深，古老而又先进，我在藏人身上早已看到了它美妙的传承：虔敬，善良，感激，给予；中国五千年文化，留给汉人的是什么呢？当然不仅仅是精华。而中共政权又在淋漓尽致运用那些糟粕，束缚和扼杀藏人那独一无二的对人类绝对有益的传承！二十一世纪，当人们正在穿越国家的栅栏，共同追寻自由、民主、人权，尊崇民族文化个性的时候，这种令人发指的殖民行为，恰恰是这个世界最无法接受的肮脏物。在中国，越来越多的深刻而敏锐的知识分子，正在看穿中共，公开地表达他们在西藏问题上的独立见解，强烈地要求结束专制统治，实行言论自由和媒体开放，撤消以"分裂祖国"为罪名对您的指控，并要求以"尊重、宽容、磋商和对话的方式解决西藏问题"。
Tibet's culture is profound and extensive, ancient and progressive, and I long ago saw the beauty of its traditions in the Tibetan people: devotion, kindness, gratitude, benevolence; and what has China's 5000-year culture left the Han people? Naturally, not all of it has been exquisite, and the Chinese authorities have used those dregs in gruesome details to enslave and shackle the Tibetan people with "traditions of unique benefit to all mankind!" In the twenty-first century when people leap over their countries' fences in a common pursuit of freedom, democracy and human rights, and respect for the singularity of their ethnic culture, it is precisely such colonial behavior as this that the world rejects as a thing of filth. There are more and more deep-thinking and incisive intellectuals in China who are starting to see through the Communists, publicly expressing their own independent views on the Tibet question, demanding an end to totalitarian rule, the implementation of freedom of expression and freedom of the media, withdrawing the accusations against you of being a "splittist of the Motherland", and demanding "a resolution of the Tibet problem by means of respect, tolerance, consultation and dialog."

近三十年来的改革开改，似乎使中国出现了"大国崛起"之势。事实上，不过是"中国在加入世界潮流的同时，搭上了全球化的便车"。道德沦丧，已蔓延到了中国最偏远的乡村，作恶和糜烂成为时尚。在这种情况下举办奥运，必然与奥运精神相悖。表面的繁荣无法掩饰内在的空虚。改革恶政，已成了摆在每一个中国人面前的事实。如果中共领导人继续在西藏问题上骄横跋扈，威逼和践踏藏人，欺骗和误导中国民众，否定您在世间无法替代的和平价值和无与伦比的精神贡献，固守"枪杆子里面出政权"的反人类逻辑，其末日会在不远的一个早晨突然而至。您一定会回到您的土地！当您和苦难的藏人团聚的时候，敬请您慈悲的光芒，也眷顾罪孽深重的中国大地。
In the almost 30 years of reform and opening up, the trend has led China towards becoming a "great nation". In actual fact, it's no more than "As China enters the international mainstream, it is hitching a ride towards globalization." The loss of morality has permeated into even China's most remote villages, and evil and dissipation have become the fashion. Hosting the Olympics under circumstances such as these inevitably runs counter to the Olympic spirit. The superficial prosperity cannot conceal the void within. The need to reform bad governance is a fact that has been placed before every Chinese person. If the Communist leaders continue to be arrogant and imperious on the question of Tibet and coerce and trample upon the Tibetan people, and deceive and mislead the Chinese masses, and if they continue to deny your irreplaceable value towards peace in the world and your unrivaled spiritual contributions, and adhere to the inhuman logic of "power grows from the barrel of a gun," their days will come to a sudden end one not too distant dawn. There is no doubt you will return to your land! When you are reunited with the suffering Tibetan people, please extend the warm light of your benevolence to care upon the heavy sins of China's vast land.

愿您慈悲的航船永驻人间！
May the ship of your compassion for ever be among us!

一个同情藏人的苦难并对您怀有无限崇敬之心的汉人：朱瑞
From a Han who sympathizes with the suffering of the Tibetan people, and who has limitless respect for you: Zhu Rui.

（此文首发在唯色的博客上，被译成英文后，首发在： www.savetibet.org. ）